Spiritual Guide while still Living in this World †

NOTE: Instead of giving advice na kahit mismo ako eh marami pa ako kakainin na bigas, I will just share some of God's words that also relate to my life experiences then & now. Enjoy reading & God bless! :)

"Do not conform the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind."

- Romans 12:2 -

BEING MISUNDERSTOOD

John 15:18 - If the world hates you, keep in mind it hated Me first.

Psalm 7:8 - Vindicate me, Lord, according to my righteousness & my integrity.

1 Samuel 16:7 - People look at the outward appearance but the Lord looks at the heart.

TAKING 'THINGS' SERIOUSLY 

Ecclesiastes 7:21 - Do not pay attention to every word people say, or you may hear your servant cursing.

James 1:19 - Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry.

Proverbs 4:23 - Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.

 

PEOPLE - PLEASING

Colossians 3:23 - Whatever you do, work at it with all you heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters.

Galatians 1:10 - Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings or of God? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.

CHOOSING FRIEND / COMPANION WISELY

1 Corinthians 15:33 - Do not be misled: "Bad company corrupts good character."

Psalms 26:4 - I do not sit with the deceitful, nor do I associate with hypocrites.

WHEN IT'S DIFFICULT TO TRUST NOWADAYS

Psalm 118:8 - It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in humans.

WHEN SOMEONE HAS WRONGED YOU

Luke 23:34 - Father, forgive them for they do not know what they are doing.

Colossians 3:13 - Bear with each other and forgive one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.

Romans 12:19 - 'Do not take revenge... It is Mine to avenge; I will repay' says the Lord.

WHEN SOMEONE IGNORED / REJECTED YOU FOR NO REASON

John 15:18 - If the world hates you, keep in mind it hated Me first.

John 15:25 - They hated me without reason.

ASKING ON THE SPOT & SPEAKING TO MANY

Exodus 4:12 - Now therefore go and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall speak. 

Matthew 10:20 - For it is not you who speak but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you.

Dear 16 years old MI ☆

You’re exhausted. 😕

Not just tired—tired of trying to be okay all the time. Tired of pretending things don’t hurt as much as they do. I know how heavy your chest feels when you’re alone at night. I know how loud your thoughts get when the world finally shuts up.

 

You think something is wrong with you. You replay conversations, mistakes, and silences until you convince yourself you’re too much or not enough—sometimes both in the same breath. I need you to hear this clearly: you are not defective. You are overwhelmed, young and doing the best you can with what you’ve been given.

You still doubt yourself. You still have days where you want to disappear. But you learn how to survive the waves. You learn that feelings don’t last forever, even the terrifying ones. You learn that you don’t have to hate yourself to grow.

You’re going to blame yourself for things that were never your fault. You’re going to stay too long in places that hurt because you think leaving means you failed. It didn’t. You were loyal. You were hopeful. You were human.

Some people won’t choose you— it's either they dislike you for no reason or they witness your grumpy/vulnerable side. That will wreck you for a while. You’ll think, "If I were wiser, they would’ve stayed." That’s a lie you tell yourself because it’s easier than accepting that love isn’t something you can control. One day, you’ll stop begging to be chosen and that day will quietly change your life.

You’re allowed to be angry. You’re allowed to be sad. You’re allowed to not have a clear future. Stop punishing yourself for being lost. No one teaches you how to exist in a world that expects so much and explains so little.

I know you feel alone. I know you feel like no one truly understands you. But I am here. I’m proof you make it through. I’m proof that you don’t give up—even when you want to. And I’m proud of you for surviving days you never talk about.

I love you—not the future, healed, confident version of you.

I love this you. The scared one. The sensitive one. The one who keeps going anyway.

Hold on. Just a little longer.

I promise—you’re worth it.

xoxo,

Your 26 years old self 💜

8 years. 🌟👼🏻

NOTE: I made this letter for my first guy best friend at same date but 3 years ago. I just want to post this in my blog 'coz why not? He deserves to be remembered & let's also have a little throwback from my JHS years. 💌

Hi Baste!

Do you still remember my nickname to you?

Alam mo ba kung saan ko nakuha ang 'Baste' dahil sa kakabasa ko sa wattpad nun hahaha at tignan mo nga naman tinatawag ko na sa'yo hanggang ngayon. Alam ko rin na ako lang ang tumatawag sa iyo niyan.

Paano nga ba nagstart ang friendship natin? Sa totoo lang, hindi ko na maalala kung sino ba sa atin dalawa ang una nagapproach. Hahaha. Basta ang alam ko lang you were God sent to me.

Alam mo naman na 'loner' ako noon di ba sa school natin? I had two best friends pero hindi ko sila naging kaklase. Minsan lang kami nagkakasabay kumain dahil kasabay na nila kumain sa lunch yung mga kaklase at friend na rin nila kaya ako sumisingit lang ako kahit na puno na sila sa isang table. Nakakaloka noh?

Then everytime may activity at kailangan ng partner. Wala ako mahanap. Kung sino lang ang natira, sila na partner ko.

Until you came.

Grade 9 tayo nun at naalala ko na late ka na nakapagenroll. Naririnig ko rin sa mga kaklase ko nun na may 'New Transferee'. Inisip ko na baka ikaw na ang ipinadala ni Lord sa akin. Tapos narinig ko pa ulit sa mga kaklase ko nun na 'May mga naging kaklase ka pala sa mga kaklase ko.' So I felt a little bit of disappointment. Iniisip na 'loner' na naman ako.

Nung nagtransfer ka, gusto ko ako ang unang magapproach sa'yo pero naunahan ako at saka kaklase kasi natin yung dati mo kaklase nung Elementary yata. Kaya hindi na ako umasa na magiging magkaibigan pa tayo dahil may nakauna na eh. Saka as if naman magugustuhan mo akong kaibigan. Ang boring ko kaya kasama.

Pero mukhang naawa yata sa akin si Lord kaya hindi ko na alam kung paano nagsimula ang lahat. Naramdaman ko na lang na naguusap na pala tayo. Unlike noon na wala ako mahanap na partner pero bigla ka tumabi sa akin sabay sabing 'Tayo na ang magpartner' Hindi ko alam kung ano mararamdaman ko nun. Hindi na rin kita tinanong kung bakit. Pero alam ko sa sarili ko na masaya ako dahil finally may partner na rin ako. 

Naalala ko rin na may group activity tayo nun sa P.E. Kailangan gumawa ng sariling 'waltz' dance at tayo ulit nagpartner nun. Tapos may isa tayong kaklase na kagroup natin na nakiusap sa akin na magpalit daw kami ng partner. Narinig mo rin yun. Yung kaklase naman natin I think pinapili ka pa niya kung sino sa amin dalawa. Sa totoo lang, kinabahan ako nun kasi first of all, comfortable na ako sa'yo at first time ko naramdaman yung ganung feeling. Pero ako pa rin ang pinili mo. Hindi na ulit kita tinanong dahil mas lamang ang kasiyahan ko nun. Kaya nga everytime naririnig ko ang 'Can I Have This Dance?' ng HSM 3, ikaw ang naaalala ko eh.

Meron pa... nung malapit na Valentine's Day, nagpagawa ng valentine card ang English Teacher natin noon at ibigay daw kung sino man gusto mo pagbigyan. Ikaw agad ang pumasok sa isip ko nun pero ako, expected ko na wala magbibigay sa akin. Hahaha. Nung bigayan na ng valentine card, lalapitan na sana kita para ibigay ko yung para sa'yo. Pero sa hindi na naman inaasahan, lumapit ka at may inabot ka sa akin. Isang medium yellow envelope at sa loob ay kulay green na paper na may mga red hearts. Sabihin man ng iba na simple lang yun. But no. Hindi lang basta simple yun dahil iyon ang unang bigay mo sa akin at iyon din ang first letter na nareceive ko sa Valentine's Day from a guy friend.

Kung nandito ka pa sana, ipapakita o isesend ko sa'yo through messenger na nakatago pa yung letter mo sa akin. Sana ganun ka rin sa akin. Kahit wala ka na, nakatago pa rin sana yung letter ko para sa'yo. Sabi mo pa nga roon sa letter mo sa akin, "Give your love to the one who deserves it." Alam mo ba wala pa nakakapagsabi nun sa akin. Ikaw pa lang. Kaya nung nabasa ko iyon, sabi ko sa sarili ko. Kung dumating na yung magiging first boyfriend ko at ang lalaki na nakalaan para sa akin, ipapakilala kita sa kanya kahit sa picture na lang. At saka kung sakali man na nagkaanak ako ng lalaki (kung meron man). Ipapangalan ko rin siya ng 'Sebastian'. Deserve mo maalala, Baste. Ikaw ang first answered prayer ko nung nagiisa ako. 🦋

Yung JS Prom natin, hindi ko na naman inaasahan na first dance natin ang isa't isa. Huhuhu. Grabe ka talaga!

Tapos nung Grade 10 na tayo, bumalik ka na ulit sa dati mong school sa PUI. Oo, naging malungkot ulit ang buhay ko pero nakakatuwa pa rin kasi hindi natatapos ang communication natin dalawa. Sayang nga lang dahil hindi man tayo lumabas para kumain at for bonding na rin. At saka nung malapit na tayo magSHS, ikaw ang unang sinabihan ko na sa UPang ko na itutuloy SHS ko tapos sabi ko pa sa UPang ka na rin at naalala ko na nagshift ako ng ABM kasi gusto ni Mama kunin ko sa college ay HRM kaya lang bumalik ulit ako ng STEM.

Ikaw din ang unang kaibigan ko na tumawag at nakipagvideo call sa akin nung pumunta kami sa Saudi A. Naalala ko rin na humihiling ka ng pasalubong na bag. Nagsend ka pa ng picture nun. Hahaha. Sabi ko 'Ano ako? OFW? Hindi pa nga ako tapos eh.' Kaya chocolates na lang pasalubong ko muna sa'yo pero hindi ko naibigay. ☹️ Tanga ako eh! 😭💔

Sorry, Baste, Sorry..... Hindi ko alam na ganun pala. 😶 Nagulat na lang ako nung chinat ako ni ate Vannessa na 'Wala ka na..." Sa una, hindi ako naniwala pero nung binisita ko ang Profile mo. Like shit. B-Bakit? P-Paano? Alam mo ba nung kinabukasan na yun ay exam namin. Hindi ako masyado nakapagreview nun dahil ikaw ang nasa isip ko at kung ibabalik ko lang time na yun 'Sana hinintay ko na lang kayo ng kasama mo para maibigay ko sa'yo yung gift ko para sa'yo.' Kahit sa  huling pagkakataon ay napasaya kita but it was too late. 🤐

Kaya rito ko natutunan yung "It's now or never" at kapag may gusto kang ibigay na regalo sa isa sa mga mahahalagang tao sa buhay mo ay "It's better to give than regret later." ☺

Who am I really... #unfiltered

NOTE: I disturbed & asked my favorite person which is my mom - to write my positive & negative traits from early childhood to young adulthood. Sabi ko pa sa kanya "Yung totoo lang at walang echos!". So let's see kung ano ba yung pinagsasabi ng Nanay ko sa akin at kung pasok ba sa mga pinagsasabi ko sa 'Getting to know MI' na ginawa ko. 😐

Early - Middle Childhood

1. When Maybel was still a baby, she's not a crying baby, always smiling & giggling if someone makes her laugh.
2. Pinaggigilan dahil cute
3. Tahimik na bata
4. Umiiyak kapag inaasar o inaaway siya
5. Mahilig maglaro kahit mag-isa niya lang.
6. Marunong nang mag-ayos at maglinis ng bahay pati magbuhat ng gamit.
7. Gusto niya organized lahat ng mga gamit tulad ng mga tsinelas, nakahilera iyan.

Adolescence - Young Adulthood

1. Mahiyain 
2. Like Mama, she also has uncontrollable laughter, and bedroom is her comfort zone.
3. Hindi paakar (Aalis lang ng bahay kapag uutusan o may importanteng lakad.)
4. Organized sa mga gamit.
5. Binibilang muna ang mga lalabahang damit niya.
6. Hindi mapili sa pagkain.
7. Trustworthy
8. Caring
9. Generous
10. Humble
11. Secretive (Iisipin muna kung dapat ba sabihin o hindi.)
12. Sweet
13. Mahilig sa mga surprises 
14. Mahilig siya manood ng mga nakakatawa
15. Manlilibre siya kapag may sapat siyang pera.
16. Pinapahalagahan niya kahit napakaliit na bagay kapag may binigay ka sa kanya.
17. Kapag naggrocery o namalengke kami, gusto niya siya ang magbubuhat ng pinamili.
18. Appreciative in everything 
19. She makes me laugh by sharing some funny jokes, memes or stories.
20. Friendly but too selective sa mga taong nakakahalubilo niya.
21. Hindi mapili sa damit na isusuot. Sometimes, she will ask me kung okay ba yung suot niya o hindi.
22. She could tolerate criticism from other people but deep inside, she would take it personally, overthink & got emotional.
23. When she is curious something, she will go to me like...

           Maybel: Ma, pwede magtanong?

           Mama: Ano 'yon? (Feeling nervous because sometimes I cannot give her an exact answer that she wants to hear.)

    24. You need to be attentive listener when you are having a conversation with her.

    25. Ayaw niyang ipalinis at ipaayos yung kwarto niya. Gusto niya siya lang.

    26. Laging nagdadoubt sa sarili at minsan, advance mag-isip (Yung hindi mo pa nga iniisip, iniisip na kaagad niya.)

    27. Being lazy & stubborn sometimes when she's not in the mood to listen.

    28. Being mischievous when she's in the good mood such as acting like a kid or playing prank.

    29. Too talkative (Yung inaantok ka na pero siya gusto niya pa makipagkwentuhan.)

    30. Nagdideactivate ng social medias niya especially Facebook & Messenger kaya minsan hindi siya macontact.

 First JS Prom (Grade 7) 

 18th Debut 

(February 10, 2018)

First birthday travel with my closest friends 

 at Strawberry Farm, 

La Trinidad, Benguet, Baguio City

(February 09, 2019)

Birthday Travel with Mama at Wright Park, 

Baguio City (February 09, 2020)

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"To help yourself, you must be yourself. Be the best that you can be. When you make a mistake, learn from it, pick yourself up & move on."

- David Pelzer

1. Embrace yourself, your imperfections, your uniqueness & CHANGES

• No negative self-talk. Learn what to improve.
• Nobody & nothing is perfect in this world.

2. Trust your instincts

3. Listen more, Talk less

4. If you're unwell (mentally & emotionally) …

• Go to your room or somewhere else 
• Take a deep breath 3x
• Drink water
• Listen to music or watch funny shows
• Jot down your (any kind of) thoughts & feelings
• Cry 
• Sleep 

5. Respect yourself before others.

• Do not belittle or outdo others (Not doing this but I just want to include it.)
• Respect opinions & privacy

6. Be silent & stay strong on every criticism that you'll hear.

7. Stop people-pleasing!

• Normalize that not everyone will like the way you are. Cool ka lang, ganern!

8. You cannot control how some people will treat you or what they'll say about you, but you can control how you react to it. 

9. Don't let your emotion control you.

10. Be grateful in everything or what God has offer to you.

11. If you want to build a happy, peaceful and successful relationship with yourself or with your significant other, remember the word: A.C.T.S. (Acceptance. Consistency. Trust. Stability) + Respect = LOVE

12. Pray.

• Lagi naman available si Lord Jesus na makinig at tulungan tayo basta wag lang kalimutan na tulungan din ang sarili.